Sometimes things don’t go perfect. Or anywhere near. Maybe J doesn’t act right . . . or Brad . . . life . . . sometimes I don’t even behave! And I tend to boil over rather easily. The furor passes quickly, making it clear that life does go on, but lately I have been working on avoiding the overflow altogether. This summer I actually made a list (have you figured out how much I love lists?) of the things that help me simmer down. The things that help me gain perspective.
- LEAVES—this is honestly number one. When I start getting steamed I picture (or go look at) the luscious row of trees behind our house that make up a virtual wall of green leaves. Something about the multitude and vivaciousness is great for me. I will never forget driving home from getting glasses and being able to see all the leaves as separate differentiated entities, rather than a mass of green. Driving I still find myself amazed by the leaves (especially with this beautiful summer!).
- keeping my mouth shut for a minute and just breathing instead
- VPR—I listen to the radio A LOT and have realized the reason I so appreciate it is because the stories help me step outside myself and gain perspective
- stepping outside (physically). See the sun or rain, the leaves, or the stars and moon . . .
- lately, just watching or cuddling with my kitties
- Peaking in on J sleeping
- water—swimming would be best, but sometimes a shower helps as well. Or even playing in J’s little pool or with the hose. Maybe I should try a bath? This is a luxury I have never really tried.
- I tell myself, “just keep moving” or alternatively give in to doing nothing. If it’s getting late: just go to bed!
- Prioritizing. I cannot do it all. And I certainly can’t do it all perfectly.
There are also plenty of things I hope to start doing in order to keep myself on as much of an even keel as possible. Exercise would be great; I would love to start doing yoga again. I am putting a big effort into cleaning, organizing, and maybe even decorating the house. Pleasant surroundings are good for anyone. Institute more of a constant schedule and expectations. Organizing my commitments. Getting lots of sleep. Oh, and I should get back to eating healthy . . .